Sunday, September 4, 2011

The guilt is driving me crazy...

I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt about mostly two things - not blogging enough about Stenger baby #2 (which includes taking monthly photos of the belly) and not blogging enough in general lately and hoping I don't forget all the memorable things happening with Karmann right now. Here's my list in short, and hopefully I will remember enough to explain...itchy, birthday wishes, bbq with Riley, Seaworld with Daddy, Ms. McDaniel's class room transition, pooping in pants, dancing like a ballerina, hide and seek, little miss social butterfly - just to name a few.
I'll start with the most frustrating - she is progressing very well on going pee, but she persistently is going poop in her underwear. We are at a loss of patience and ideas, so when she's at home, its been pull-ups lately. She still doesn't exactly tell us when she has to pee, but we can pretty much tell by now. Poop, she never tells and then when you smell it, and ask her, she goes into denial and fights us when we try and change her. I'm sure this process is going to cause some sort of counselling issue when she's 21 (hopefully not, though) but we don't know what else to do. I am surrendering and reverting back to the pull-ups and hopefully soon, she will get it.
On to a little better issues....our evening routine has grown very long and laborious - except on nights like tonight and last night where big days and no nap leads to an 8 pm bed time! - but on week nights, its been a drawn out hour of bath time, potty time, brush teeth time, reading time, and laying in bed time. Once she is in bed, the cutest thing she tells me is "mommy, my knees itchy" then it becomes her arms that are itchy, so I scratch her arms, then its her hands or fingers, toes, and knees again, and of course her back and belly button. And the other knight, it was her nose and ears too! It is too cute, because I was just like this with my dad who used to put me to bed every night when I was little. So I enjoy it.
The other night was my birthday. She knew it was my birthday and I think even sang happy birthday to me with Kris at dinner time. Then, when she was taking a bath, I had Kris take over so I could work on preparing for my next class. I asked for a good night hug and kiss and without any prompting what so ever, she said "Happy birthday Mommy, I love you!" It was the sweetest thing and my heart just melted! Its amazing that she does these things - and she's only 2 1/2!!!
The last few weekends have been full of parties and fun. We had a bbq at our friends Chris and Ren's. They have a little girl only about a month older than Karmann named Riley. They had a great time and by the end of the party they were playing ring around the rosie together, which was cute. Also, this weekend, we had Ezra's b-day party. Karmann walked into the room and you would have thought she'd know everyone since she was born! She was a little miss social butterfly! Then today when we got to the pool at the condo to cool off and wear her out, she walked in and waved and said "hello everyone!" like she was the guest of honor!! It was hilarious! She did the same thing at the park. She usually does know the kids when we go swimming and to the park with her daycare buddies, so she must think they are all there all the time. I am thankful that she is friendly and likes to make new friends, but this is totally new for her and people she doesn't know! Again, how old is she?!?
These are just a few more stories. She is really into singing and dancing and today she told Kris she was dancing ballet - as clear as day. Though, the next minute she is speaking like she is a baby with this "ga ga goo goo" baby talk - which has just been recent in the last week or so. I'm trying to figure that out, except maybe she senses the baby coming, and is thinking she'll get more attention if she acts like a baby....not quite sure what I am supposed to think about this....
Oh, and another quick note to remember - she finally is liking broccoli! Yeah. She is such a good eater but its good to add it to the vegetable list.
Okay, update on baby #2! Last week I went to my 30 week check up. I had gained 6 lbs in two weeks - blaming it on my birthday! So I am being a little more conscience about eating these couple of weeks. I am measuring normal otherwise, and I keep forgetting to get the baby's heartbeat, so I will do that this week. I went through a horrible week physically last week. I wore dresses for most of the week, and the lack of belly support really did me in. I practically could not walk on Thursday night. The ligaments in my hips and below my belly were so sore I could hardly move without wanting to scream. So I went to bed early, slept with more pillows, and wore pants and a belly band on Friday, and I felt much better. The pillows help the tail bone issue, too, which also adds to the discomfort. I can say, though, this weekend has not been too bad. I'm trying not to carry Kar as much and Kris is helping a lot as well. I am almost done with bending over to pick something up, too. Eight more weeks till due date this coming Wednesday!!! Hoping I can hang in there!!!
The baby has been really really active. Also has been getting the hick-ups a lot! I can't quite figure out where the head and legs are, as it seems to be constantly shifting. Still no idea in my mind what the sex is. Kris is still convinced its a girl - and I think he has me convinced as well - until proven otherwise! My nesting instinct hasn't quite taken charge yet, though my mind is thinking about it, I just haven't had the energy to do anything about it. This child is definitely coming into Karmann's world, so there's going to be adjustments all around!
In addition to all the stuff going on above, I've also started teaching as an adjunct professor at UCF's new School of Architecture. I know I'm crazy to do this - esp. this semester when I am due to have a child in the middle of the semester - but I am really liking it and am glad to have my foot in the door. I'm teaching Environmental Technology 2 to 4th year students. Its a lot of work, as I am the 1st one to teach the class, so I have to basically create the class. Luckily I have a lot of stuff from school that I am building off of. Its just another time commitment. But, we are getting used to it. Kris also teaches, and the day he teaches, I do too, so thankfully, our good friend Bev is watching Kar while our class times overlap. Just not sure what we are going to do once the baby gets here...but we'll figure something out.
Alright, I think I've said what I needed to remember. I feel a little less guilty now. And I will try to do more frequent, but shorter posts, so I don't forget all the fun stuff in this crazy life!
Have a good holiday weekend!


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